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by Jordan Ondoy, MSIV
Preliminary Note: These selections were written during a Narrative Medicine course at NYU/Lutheran Medical Center, Brooklyn, NY in 2016. Participants were given the first sentence of an existing work as a writing prompt and would then complete the thought with their own ideas. Further details from the author are listed below each selection.
Today, I could be spending time
I'm learning a lot of things in medical school but will it be enough? I chose this career path, this lifelong decision, this vocation, with the idealistic, albeit cliché, desire to save lives. Will I reach a point where all the education and medical know-how taught to us to "save lives" will reach a dead end? Of course. Of course it will. Medicine is a limitless, ever-changing field. There is no way for anyone to fully master the ability to save lives. That is something I need to acknowledge and accept. So I guess the more important thing to ponder is whether medical school has taught me the ability to know my limits, to know the limitations of modern medicine, and to fully understand that the objective of "saving lives" isn't always achievable. Even so, I still have to wake up the next day and know I've been as equipped as possible to handle what's thrown my way. I still have to strive to do my best each and every day.
What am I doing inside?
A lot of times I find myself caught in a struggle